Recently, I have been reading through the book of Romans and verses that I have heard all of my life, have taken on a bigger and deeper meaning in my life. In Romans 12:2, I kept wondering how do I transform my mind? How do I stop the things that are displeasing to YAHUAH?
I renew-change-transform my mind with reading of the Word. YAHUAH’s Word will tell me what is good, what is acceptable to Him and what His will is.
Many times, I feel like I don’t know what His will is. Why don’t I know? I don’t know because I am not getting in His Word to find out.
Spending time in His Word can and will transform me! I just have to open it up.
Sometimes in life we are hinder our healing, deliverance, and/or change in our lives. Sometimes we just need to let go and let YAHUAH work in our lives.
This week’s Shabbat Message: Talk To Me About Grace will encourage you to move beyond the opinions of others and your own excuses, to receive what you have been trying to reach for and to know fully that what YAHUAH gives is without cost.
It is time to believe, it is time to pray, it is time to let go, to press forward and allow His love to fill our hearts, which transcends all sin.
Sometimes the answer to an issue we are praying about is right in front of our face, but we are looking every where else, trying anything else but that one answer!
That’s what we have experienced recently.
We were trying to do something a while back and an option came for us to go a certain way but it was a different way that we were not as familiar with. So we chose to stay on the more familiar route, based on our previous success. However, months later, we were tired, frustrated and at our wits end. We were at the point of giving up, when we decided to look into that unfamiliar option again. This option which had been available all along was much easier and stress free. We could have saved time, money, emotional toil, and lessened the challenges, had we chosen this option sooner.
Yet we were the hold up because desiring our own ways and not wanting to give up this or that was blocking us from moving forward.
Then when we let go of the wheel, when we gave up, we surrendered our will, YAHUAH moved in miraculous ways. He provided for us in numerous ways. And His answer was there all along, we just had to let go.
Then one day it seemed as if nothing was going to work. First we hit one road block but we were able to find a potential path around. Then a few hours later, a second road block came-only it was higher than the first one.
Earlier this week, I remember laying in the bed, thinking I am so tired. I give up. I have to accept this “no” for now.
Then, His truth crumbled the first road block, correcting wrong information. A day or so later, YAHUAH’s grace demolished the second road block and His mercy shined down upon us. Then He, unexpectedly poured down even more grace upon us. Though it came through people, we know that at every point He was behind it.
YAHUAH’s grace on us.
All week long, I’ve thought about these situations, which completely turned around unexpectedly. I am change by them. As I reflect on the timing when this event started in our life, I see His hand was there. Most of the time I refused to see it, but He was still there. I know He hears me and has my best in His plans. All things work together for our good…the no’s, delays, challenges, frustrations and even some of our own decisions – all worked in our behalf – although we couldn’t see it.
He still moves mountains even today.
For me and you.
For all who believe.
Now, not all situations will work out similarly or according to our own earthly plans, most don’t even come close, but since YAHUAH’s plans for me are better than I can plan for myself, it is best to submit to His will.
Just because our prayers were answered close to our desires, doesn’t mean the answer is without it’s own challenges. There were somethings we had to let go of, some compromises we had to accept and some changes we had to and still have to make. We can’t see what YAHUAH has for us as we go in this direction, but I know His best-is best.
Nearly eight years ago, we had a miscarriage at about 8 weeks into the pregnancy. I went to the hospital with some bleeding on the first day of the Festival of Unleavened Bread that week. The doctors said everything was fine and this was normal.
A few days later, the bleeding became worse and big clots started coming out. I tried to rest as much as I could but nothing could stop what was happening. The next day was a Sabbath and when we saw flesh in the clots, we immediately went to the hospital, where they confirmed a miscarriage was happening.
I was crushed and confused. Why me? Why us?
I still don’t have the answers and a few months later we became pregnant with our first born son who is totally amazing to me!
But the grief that I went through for a long time was hard then and sometimes is still even hard now. There was a painting that someone created years ago of the Messiah carrying a black woman in His arms walking on the beach-that was me for several months after the miscarriage.
I felt like I was barely able to breathe, let alone function. I tried to hold myself together because we had three daughters who needed me, so I would get up in the morning, with every intent on doing one of my exercise videos, but within a few minutes, I’d end up on the floor in quiet tears.
I know that it was only YAHUAH’s hand on me that kept me from losing my mind. I felt like my heart had just been ripped away from me. I had doubts and fears. I wanted to blame YAHUAH, blame myself, blame anything I could think of. I felt like I was on the verge of breaking down, but YAHUAH kept me.
In a desperate search for help, I found March of Dimes web page about Miscarriages and I signed up to receive a package in the mail about grief. This was so helpful for me. It helped me to understand that my husband and I grieve differently and I didn’t need to be upset with him because of that. It helped me to see that we were not alone-that others have went through miscarriages too.
One moment at a time, one step at a time, I walked through that grief. Some days were good and some were bad. Having a husband and three daughters to homeschool and take care of everyday, pushed me to get out of bed, to go outside, and to find a moment to smile. Years later, I still feel that grief some days and the Festival of Unleavened Bread is a constant reminder of it. Yet, I am not at the same place I was eight years ago.
So I want you to know today, that you are not alone if you have went through or are going through a miscarriage. YAHUAH is there with you. Whether you have family near or far, have friends or not, don’t let go of YAHUAH’s hand. Though you may not see a way through your grief, let Him carry you through your grief. Don’t fight the grief you feel. Don’t stay in it either, but live through it.
May YAHUAH comfort you in His everlasting arms.
For about half of this week, I was low state. I was deeply disappointed and in great sadness. This sadness was beginning to turn to anger toward YAHUAH. Sometime on Friday, I began to see that my attitude was wrong but still I felt like I was so right in the way that I felt. Now my feelings weren’t wrong. We will experience disappointments in life, but the way that I choose to respond and not walk in faith believing YAHUAH’s word over what I saw, was wrong.
So today, I was listening to David and Nicole Binion and I was trying to replay “Doxology” when another song started playing. I was about to hit the back button, when I heard the words “When I cannot see it…” As I continued to listen, I knew this was my song today.
So if you are down in your faith, if life’s challenges have you challenged, I pray this picture I created below, will encourage you to hang on.
Here is the song: All Things – Nicole Binion
This is the question we truly must ask ourselves:
Is celebrating Halloween Worth the Fun?
One day my husband and I were outside and a neighbor was walking by taking a basket of Halloween candy to another neighbor. When my husband asked her why she was doing it, since it was not of Christ, she said “We do it for the candy! For the kids!”
Have we who believe in the bible, dropped so low in our faith that we are willing to participate in wicked celebrations, just for some candy?
I could write a thousand more words about why we should be avoiding candy to begin with but the deeper issue is, why are many people excusing and taking part in what is clearly known as a celebration that is against the bible?
In this special message, Where is Christ in Halloween 2018 WTF? (Worth The Fun) you will be challenged with The Word and invited to “put on the Truth of Holiness” instead of giving way to envy and falling into sin. It is time to climb out and be set apart. The church, the body of Messiah “needs to stop acting like the world and be holy.”
If you are a believer in the bible, and are willing to allow the Messiah to dwell in you, then listen to this message, Where is Christ in Halloween 2018 WTF? (Worth The Fun)
Also here is the Message Scripture Guide –
Where is my focus?
What kills my faith?
Why am I lonely?
Where am I casting my cares?
What can I choose to allow into my heart?
What must I believe?
What am I worried about?
Where do I get encouragement?
Who is my light?
Where do I put my trust?
Whose joy is in me?
Whose am I?
Where do I find strength?
What am I finding my joy in?
I know I have had the very same questions and maybe you have too. What are we to do with our questions? Where are we to turn?
Today’s Shabbat Message Great Is His Faithfulness, is straight from the heart. We all have faith but we are only flesh. In life, we all deal with Anxiety, Fear, Loneliness, Discouragement and Lack of Joy-but that is not the end. YAHUAH the Father and YAHUSHA Messiah (Christ) His Son is there with us. In fact, HIS word has many promises of hope.
I invite you today, to hear of our heavenly Father’s Faithfulness and His love toward You today, in Great Is His Faithfulness.
That’s what salvation has become.
Simple, true salvation has become buried under Torah keeping, man-made laws, traditions, so -called “new” insights, classes for salvation, words that are always changing, do this, don’t do that, moons, new moons, calendars, clothing, reading, regulations of worship, prayers rooted in the Talmud…placing a yoke of bondage or completely blocking the free gift of grace.
Those things that complicate salvation suck the Joy Out of Grace and pollute our life in Messiah how it can truly be lived.
But when a person just reads the bible-the words of The Messiah for him/herself, they will find none of that. They find freedom. That’s what we need to get back to.
In this week’s Shabbat Message: The Simplicity of Messiah (Christ) – you will hear about salvation, plain and simple. You will see clearly that Love is passed down through Grace and the life changing encounter that the Good News Brings.
I was particularly encouraged to hear and read a portion of scripture that shows a truly awesome testimony of a man who beat two followers of Messiah, but later found himself asking “what must I do to be saved?” Salvation was presented to him and his house hold, immediately, simply, and they were baptized.
If you need water for your soul, if you need to hear the good news simple and uncluttered, if you want your freedom back, I encourage you to listen to this week’s Shabbat Message: The Simplicity of Messiah (Christ).
When I started working on this graphic, my focus was on the word BEHOLD, but when I typed the word “Now” I noticed something I never have before. Now implies that there is a time for everything. It wasn’t time for a change prior to this point but NOW-NOW is the that time YAHUAH is going to do something and guess what? It’s not hiding, we don’t have to search for it, we just have to open our eyes and see it!!!
Most of my life I have only heard people focus on one aspect of Miykal (Michal) one of King David’s wives but recently as I was reading about King David with our children, I found several attributes of her that are awesome. The story is found in 1 Shemu’el (Samuel) 19:8-17.
The last time that Sha’ul threw his javelin at David, Sha’ul sent messengers to watch David at his house and to kill him in the morning. When Miykal learned of her father’s plan, she encouraged David to save his own life immediately. She helped him by letting him down through a window and then she made it look like David was in the bed sick. Even when her father asked her why she did what she did-she changed the story to seem like David was trying to save her by leaving. Miykal knew of her father’s jealously and his wrath no doubt, but still she chose to help David. She could have gotten killed herself by her own father, yet she risked her life to help him.
How many of us wives, will choose to risk ourselves in order to help our husband?
How many are able to give wise council to help our husbands?
How many can help in whatever ways our husband needs?
There is a scripture I read long ago, that says:
Miykal did not hesitate to be courageous and comfort (help) David. Rather Miykal choose to be courageous in spite of the danger she faced. She was courageous.
She was witty and quick thinking. There was no time to think and make an plan-action! Action needed to be taken immediately and she did it.
She used wisdom. Even when dealing with her father, she doesn’t appear to have went into a disrespectful rant. While we don’t know the complete conversation between David and Miykal prior to him leaving, she made it seem like David had chosen to save her life by leaving, when she answered his question. Every father would want his daughter to be protected and not be put in a position of being hurt so this reason seemed somewhat okay to Sha’ul.
How can we support our husbands better?
One of the best ways is through prayer. We can pray for our husbands. We can stand against the attacks of the enemy and war in prayer on behalf our husbands.
Another way is by making healthy choices. If there are health issues, we can choose to find ways to be a helper rather than a hindrance. For example we can choose to fix foods that bring health to our husbands rather than increase sickness upon them.
We can support them in their efforts of work. We can support them by speaking carefully instead of carelessly. We can support them by giving ourselves in intimacy. We can support them by just being a listening ear, instead of a critical one.
Long before I was married I read a book and it said that when most people are listening to another person talk, they are formulating answers or thinking about other things, and they usually miss what the other person is trying to communicate. Since then, in most cases, I try to turn my “thinker” off and truly turn a listening ear to the speaker. In most conversations with my husband, I am not formulating what I am going to say. I am just listening. Not judging him. Just listening.
Everyday we can make choices that are courageous, witty and wise.