Who Was She? Sarah: Prayer, Trust and Fear Part 1

It is time for our next Who Was She? Introducing Sarai: Prayer, Trust and Fear Part 1.  Yashar details two of her prayers, how YAHUAH delivered her and how the enemy got her all worked up.  For months I have only thought about the warfare that she went through, but recently, as I have been in prayer, I remembered her prayers.  Ladies, though it seems like YAHUAH doesn’t hear our prayers, I believe that He truly does.  Now, let’s start with some questions:

What do you do when you find yourself in a place you never thought you’d be?

What do you do when your promise is threatened and it seems like your worst fear is about become reality?

Let’s begin!

We all know that there was a famine when Avram journeyed to Mitsrayim with Sarai and all those that were with him.  Afraid of Sarai being taken he hid her, yet the Mitsrites still found Sarai and she was taken to Pharoh’s house-to become one of his wives.

Sarai worried, was Confused and Bewildered.  Many were her thoughts, but at the same time she and Avram do the same thing.

Pray.

Though apart, they both prayed at the same time.

Yashar 15:16 says “And the woman was then brought to Phar’oh’s house, and Avram grieved on account of his woman, and he prayed to YAHUAH to deliver her from the hands of Phar’oh.  And Sarai also prayed at that time and said,”

What happens next is astounding! Yashar 15:19-20

“And YAHUAH hearkened to the voice of Sarai, and YAHUAH sent an angel to deliver Sarai from the power of Phar’oh.  And the king came and sat before Sarai and behold and angel of YAHUAH was standing over them, and he appeared to Sarai and said to her,

HALLELUYAH!

Do not fear for YAHUAH has heard your prayer!!!!

Sarai knew her deliverance was only found in YAHUAH’s hand and that only He could save her and then she asked for mercy!  She trusted in YAHUAH, not her own self and she accounted her circumstances as an accident.  She did not blame her husband, she knew he meant her no harm.

HALLELUYAH!

Ladies when we pray, we must pray-no matter the situation-pray with confidence to know that our deliverance is from YAHUAH.  Like Sarai, we must also have the confidence that we have done all that He has asked us to.  We must have accepted YAHUSHA Messiah into our hearts, forgive others (actively), keep ourselves un-spotted from he world and keep our hearts guarded (and deal with our heart issues).

Over the last few months, I have wondered in my heart, whether YAHUAH heard my prayers.  Time and time again, I have seen Him answer in His own way.  I never thought I would have to go and get a diagnostic mammogram but praise YAHUAH all is well.  I also thought I might have diabetes, kidney problems and some other health issues, but my results from my yearly women’s appointment were all normal.  This is important because for years when I was pregnant I had gestational diabetes, and when I wasn’t pregnant, I was border line diabetic.  But by listening to His leading and making some changes, I am now longer on the border line for diabetes.  In addition, several of our children had some symptoms that pointed to several serious health issues which required some testing but praise YAHUAH, they are well!

I know that sometimes the test results may not be normal.  They maybe abnormal.  But I know that YAHUAH is with us and that:

Okay, some final notes, not only did Sarai see and hear the angel comforting her, she saw the angel, tormenting her oppressor.  Yashar 15:23-28 tells of the torment that Phar’oh went through all night.  Every time he tried to come near her, the angel smote him to the ground!

Through the hand of Phar’oh, YAHUAH gave Avram and Sarai, menservants, cattle, maidservants, silver and gold and also Hagar (she was the daughter from one of his concubines and he said that it would be better for her to dwell in the house with this man than to live with him).  Yashar 15:29-33, also Bereshith 12

YAHUAH heard, delivered and provided for them.   I believe He will do no different for us.  Though we may not see angels, we must believe that YAHUAH is working things out for our good.

Part 2 Coming Soon!

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Shabbat Message: HE Is a Present Help

What do openness, waiting, being humble, fear, acknowledgement, reconciliation and love all have in common?

What they all have in common is our Father in Heaven YAHUAH.

YAHUAH is standing at the door of hearts waiting for us to open our hearts to him.

Sometimes we have to wait while YAHUAH is leading and teaching us.

We must come and humbly acknowledge that YAHUAH has a Son; YAHUSHA.

We must acknowledge that YAHUAH’s love is the glue that holds our lives and very existence all together.

It is by YAHUAH’s love that we can we be reconciled to have right relationship with HIM through the shed blood of His son YAHUSHA Messiah our Savior.

YAHUAH is waiting for us right now; are you ready to be right with Him?

Come and be encouraged as you listen to this week’s Shabbat Message: HE Is a Present Help.

Shabbat Message: Are you CLEANSED in Messiah or does the VEIL Remain?

Here are some questions to think about today:

  • Where is our righteousness found?
  • Is it in the laws that we discovered and burdening ourselves with?
  • Is a veil over our minds?
  • Are we trusting in the Torah with a veil of death over our minds?
  • What is stopping us from getting cleansed?  Are we stopping someone else from getting cleansed?
  • Why is it that when many people who discover the truth of the name of the Father, the name of His Son; that we then have no fruit?  Could it be because the Besorah (Good News or the Gospel) is hidden behind laws that no one can truthfully and honestly 100% keep?

or…

  • Are we sanctified by the shed blood of Messiah?
  • Are we living in life by dying daily depending on the grace of YAHUAH the Father which is given to all through the Passion of His Son YAHUSHA Messiah?
  • Are we living in peace and rest with Abba YAHUAH, through YAHUSHA His son and our Messiah?

More than 10 years ago, we began learning about the name of the Father, the name of His Son, The Appointed Times(High Sabbaths), Tzitzit (Tassels) and all the pagan influences around us in our culture and everywhere; we in turn Lost our Passion, Freedom of Grace, and Praise and Worship.  Like most people we exchanged the knowledge of His shed Blood for the Law of Stone.  But the Father(Abba) YAHUAH had a different plan for us.  His plan is that of Forgiveness, Joy, Peace and Love in Right Relationship with Him through His plan of Redemption of Hearts and that is found in YAHUSHA Messiah our Savior.

If you desire True Change in Your Life, if you desire to Live Again, if you desire for Your Heart to Be Revived, I encourage you to listen to this Shabbat Message: Are you CLEANSED in Messiah or does the VEIL Remain?

Prelude to The Resurrection PASSOVER

Recently, many people world wide acknowledged the Resurrection of YAHUSHA Messiah, but what happened before that?  How important was His life and death?  What does it matter to us today?

Listen and watch this encouraging message: Prelude to The Resurrection PASSOVER

 

Shabbat Message: HalleluYah YAHUSHA Is Alive Resurrection Sunday

YAHUSHA was no common man-not at all.  His miracles pointed to YAHUAH, His words confronted sin, His touch healed many, His command rebuked the waves and the wind and His death changed the world.  After three days in the grave, He proved His words, His works and life to all as the Messiah by Resurrection.  It is through His Shed Blood and Resurrection that We Can Live again with Eternal Hope.

Come and hear the living word proclaiming that He is alive in this Shabbat Message:  HalleluYah  YAHUSHA Is Alive Resurrection Sunday.

Women & Worship

Over the years of learning many “truths” I have felt like something has gotten put on the back shelf.  But recently I’ve taken it down and been pouring it out- Worship.

My heart is overflowing with worship.  Songs come to mind.  New songs I find.  My heart tugs toward the thing that connects me to YAHUAH – because I felt like I was disconnected from Him and on the inside I was dying. Worship got buried under the “religiously correct way of doing things and saying things, Torah or Turah of Words and Actions”

But when I worship, I know YAHUAH is there.  I know YAHUSHA Messiah is at YAHUAH’s right hand.  I know that despite that when it seems like YAHUAH is taking His sweet time working my issues out after years of prayer-that He has a purpose  and at His appointed time, that purpose will be accomplished.

We must  worship and be grateful for what YAHUAH has done for us. We must use  that thing that has been put away and pour it out to HIM, through our tears at times.

Ladies we must begin to find a way to worship.  Several songs have come to mind over the last few months:

Glory Be – Charity Gayle

Great is His Faithfulness – Charity Gayle

For Your Glory – Tasha Cobbs

Forever at Your Feet – Tasha Cobbs

Down at Your Feet

Whatever the method, the melody, the words, the timing – we must worship.  We must pour out that which is in us, the best of it.  Mirayim (Martha’s sister) gave her best and from her we must learn to break open the worship that has been put aside for someday.  This oil of worship that is so costly, other’s might say it is a waste, we might be criticized, our pasts – they might remember (the woman with no name who also anointed YAHUSHA Messiah) – but He who loved us doesn’t care about any of those things.

Like the woman at the well, we must worship in Ruach(Spirit) and Truth:

Permanent Decision or Changeable Circumstance

I’ve been wanting to tell about this particular topic for awhile…finally I am able to do so.

After the birth of our first son who had WPW w/ SVT, I said I did not want to have any more children.  However when he was about nine months old, I saw that he needed a brother.  So I prayed that YAHUAH would open my womb just one more time to give him a brother and later that same month I was pregnant.

With 4 of our 5 pregnancies I had gestational diabetes, and with our last son, it was just unmanageable (or so I thought and was taught).   We were tired of all the extra doctors appointments that go with having gestational diabetes, so we decided to get my tubes tied at the birth of our fifth son.  We did not trust YAHUAH during this time to lead us to changeable circumstances that could have helped the Gestational Diabetes and further more, we were not told about the complications of a tubal ligation.

All seemed well with me after his birth, but then I started having some problems.  I called my OB and she said it was normal because I was nursing and that all the problems would go away.  However I knew that these physical and emotional problems were not due to nursing!  I had some unusual pains in my uterus and my cycles were way different.  I had such severe pain and emotional challenges that I felt like I was on the edge all day long!  I had horrible night sweats, loss of libido,  and a lot of unusual weight gain.  I exercised 6 days a week, never losing a pound, weighing nearly 215!

During this time, I found Lily Nichols at http://pilatesnutritionist.com who said that eating the recommended diet, can cause /contribute to gestational diabetes! This is the circumstance that is changeable, that I wish that I would have known about during any of our pregnancies.  Had I known about this approach I am sure my diabetes would have either been non-existent or manageable.

One day while I started researching  the internet about my pains and cycle issues, I found that tubal ligation’s can cause Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome, even early menopause !!!  What!  Early what!!! Menopause…

Here are some articles:

http://rebekahgough.blogspot.com/2015/03/post-tubal-ligation-sydrome-my-story.html

http://reducetheburden.org/risk-and-contraception-what-women-are-not-told-about-tubal-ligation/comment-page-1/

http://www.newhealthadvisor.com/Post-Tubal-Ligation-Syndrome.html

http://www.tubal.org/symptoms-of-pts.htm

Through the above links and several youtube channels, I also discovered that tubal ligation’s can be reversed!!!

So we began searching to see if our insurance would cover the procedure.  Nope.  Funny how they will cover sterilization but will not provide coverage to reverse it.  Anyways without insurance, the cost was $7000.  It was a day surgery at a Medical Center near us and included a few nights stay in hotel, and several check-ups.  We went through all the preliminary stuff and set a date   November 10-11, 2014.

I had six weeks to lose slightly over 20 lbs.  I did it through juicing and a lot of exercise.  It was very hard but I arrived at my appointment weighing 193 lbs!

The surgery went well and I recovered quickly (or so I thought).  I thought by reversing the damage done that all would be well.  My cycles improved.  My emotional and physical pains went away.  Night sweats gone.  A few months later, I went to go have an HCG (where they insert blue dye to see if the tubes are clear and check for polyps).   It showed that the right Fallopian tube had a significant amount of scar tissue.

Because we were planning to move, I did not think that I could do anything about the blocked tube.  Months later, I stumbled upon natural-fertility.com and I began to read everything I could from that site.  I learned that scar tissue can be cleared with natural resources such as natural enzymes, caster oil packs, yarrow and cleanses.  I shared these things with my husband and we placed orders for these items.

I did the fertility cleanse for three months.  The liver cleanse was great and I highly recommend that all women do that at least once a year.  My cycle was completely different and I know that it worked.  The castor oil packs and fertility massages were okay.  I often feel asleep with the packs.  I also had a lot of weird looking things come out during this time (I believe it was scar tissue and dried up polyps.)

In the spring of 2016, I went to a new OB and she did some blood work.  When the tests came back, it showed that I had not been ovulating – meaning although I was having a cycle there were no eggs coming down and that my egg reserve numbers were for a woman entering menopause.  My hormone levels were in showing signs of menopause as well.

Depressed.  I cried hard.  Not ovulating.  Why?  What could be done?

I researched again and read Dr. Lee’s book about Perimenopause, and where he suggested that if a woman is having anovoulatory cycles that she take Progesterone (beeyoutiful.com) from days 5-28 for three months and that should restart ovulation.

I did that.

I cleansed again. I continued taking Vitex, Maca and other herbs such as  Tribulus and Shavarti.  Though my ovaries hurt while I was supposed to be ovulating, nothing happened and over the last year and half things began to change again.

In the fall of 2016, I started noticing some changes in my body.  I brushed them off and tried to ignore them.  Emotionally I started to feel more depressed.  My cycles started shortening from 28 down to 25 and now 18-20 days.  In the Feb 2017 my monthly bloating began again and out of nowhere many pounds appeared.  Why?  How?  I was eating good-clean and exercising several times a week.  A few months later, I turned 40, I started feeling embarrassed because I could only wear 4 things in my closet, and I was barely fitting into those things.  Now I know that at 40 a women’s body begins to go through many changes and that this season of life should be looked upon much differently, but this was beginning to be too much to handle.

One night when my husband was reading the scriptures to us, he read Yahuchanan (John) 15 which talked about bearing fruit, being pruned, then bearing more fruit.

“…And every branch that bears fruit He prunes, so that it bears more fruit.”

I took that to mean that though the season of bearing fruit through physical children-is probably over, this season of pruning (going through menopause) will produce different fruit from me.  What will that fruit be?  Certainly it includes helping our three daughters as they are growing into young women.  The fruit may eventually be helping other young mothers and wives.

So, my point in sharing my journey is to encourage other women to think and research the untold realities regarding a tubal reversal but also in any area of life.  Sometimes things may seem like there is only one way but when we look into the word of YAHUAH – we can clearly see His Will – which is for us to Bear Fruit. Now if we have some challenges while we are bearing fruit then we need to look for ways to change the circumstance.  I have already said the recommended Gestational Diabetes diet could have been changed through following a low carb diet instead.  For the last three months, I have been on a Keto type diet and I have had lots of great changes.  I know that I cannot handle certain foods, but I feel great when I eat good fats, veggies and protein (more on that journey later).

Please if you are considering having a tubal ligation, please consider that one day you might change your mind or that there might be damage to your body.  If you have already had one and are thinking of getting a tubal reversal, I encourage you to cleanse and use herbs to help your body before and after.

Don’t Make a Nearly Permanent Decision for  Circumstances that are Changeable!

Shabbat Message: Courageous

What is Courage and how do we apply it our lives?  How does YAHUAH expect us to live in a world that is so against everything in His Word? He tells us to be:

To help us become Courageous, we must seek for some Encouragement.  This Shabbat’s Message Courageous, will encourage, equip and challenge every one particularly our brothers – YAHUAH’s men – to be Courageous.

 

 

Shabbat Message: The Broken Woman

YAHUAH has not forgotten about YOU Ladies!  This Shabbat Message is for Your Encouragement.  Whatever challenges You have had or are having in Your Life – Abused, Accused, Left, Broken, Trapped, Torn, Worn, Beaten, Forgotten, Hurt, Sick, Lonely or experiencing a Famine in any forms – YAHUAH Has a Plan for Your HEALING and DELIVERANCE.

Ladies, come and listen and be completely blessed by a Word that is Spoken to Your Heart, The Broken Woman: YAHUAH’s Vision for Your Deliverance

If…

This week, as I was reading the Purim story to our children, some of Ecter’s (Ester’s) words and actions jumped out at me.

By her position and her relationship, Ecter could have approached the King any kind of way.  Hear her impeccable wisdom.  She knew that her need was so dire that she must first prepare for her interaction with him.  She doesn’t prepare alone-but with the help of her people through three days of prayer and fasting together.

Then when the time was right, she went to see him.  She was dressed in her royal garment, standing in the inner court, waiting.  She wasn’t jumping around, pacing back and forth.  She waited patiently.  Her patience pays off because when the King sees her, he immediately favors her and extends his golden scepter toward her.

Then when she walked toward him, she touched the top of his golden scepter and he asked her what was her request-he was ready to give her anything she wanted.

Here is my part-she didn’t assume that because of her position, her relationship, nor even his words that he had just spoken that she should just bring the accusation against Haman.  She doesn’t even assume that his favor would grant any desire her in this request.

Humbly she says:

“If it seem good unto the king,”

Not:

“Well, King you need to do something about Haman…”

Not screaming:

“Haman is going to ……..”

Ecter’s(Ester’s) words remind me of a song on my heart right now by Tasha Cobbs Leonard called “For Your Glory.”  The opening words are this (the Name of the Father is corrected here):

“YAHUAH if I have found favor in Your sight…YAHUAH please hear my humble cry, I am desperately waiting…”

This is key for me.  A few weeks ago, during family prayer time, I prayed  a prayer stating all the things that we do/have done and saying that because we do this then YAHUAH must  answer the way that I wanted Him to.  Shortly after, I felt a nudging from the Ruach saying that this was not be an acceptable way to pray.  Yes I was desperate, I wanted and needed YAHUAH to move on our behalf but demanding anything from YAHUAH  as if this a relationship based off a game of tag..is wrong.

YAHUAH moves in un-explainable ways.  I surely cannot know or even pretend to grasp His thoughts.  So like the song and Ecter(Ester), I have chosen to take a different route in prayer.  Cry out for help yes, but I must often wait for His answer and not assume that just because I am His daughter that I can demand anything.

So unassuming, humbly I pray…

YAHUAH, if I have found favor in Your sight, can You please…”

and then I wait.

I wait and hope.

I listen for His voice, I know that He hears me and that His Faithfulness is Great.

 

 

Who Was She? Deborah, Channah, Edna and Sarah – Tobit’s Praise & Final Words

We’ve come to the end of the this amazing story! If you have just started reading this awesome story, I encourage you to start at the beginning:

Desperate Prayers,

Instructions of a Father and a Mother Weeps,

Married Again? Is there any hope?

Her Deliverance, His Prayer, One Father’s Joy and Two Parents Worry

Restoration, Welcomed & A Revelation

Now, Then Tobit prayed this awesome prayer of praise:

Blessed be Elohiym that lives forever, and blessed be His Kingdom.  For He does scourge, and has mercy: He leads down to She’ol, and brings up again: neither is there any that can avoid His hand. Confess Him before the other people, ye children of Yisra’el: for He has scattered us among them.     There declare His greatness, and extol Him before all the living: for He is our Adonai, and He is Elohiym our Father forever.  And He will scourge us for our iniquities, and will have  mercy again, and will gather us out of all nations, among whom He has scattered.  If ye turn to Him with your whole heart, and with your whole mind, and deal uprightly before Him, then will He turn unto you, and will not hide His face from you.  Therefore see what He will do with you,  and confess Him with your whole mouth, and praise YAHUAH of might, and extol, the Everlasting King.  In the land of my captivity do I praise Him, and declare His might and majesty to a sinful nation.  O ye sinners, turn and do justice before Him: who can tell if He will accept you, and have mercy on you?  I will extol my Elohiym, and my soul shall praise the King of heaven, and shall rejoice in His greatness.  Let all men speak, and let all praise Him for His righteousness.  O Yerushalayim, the holy city, He will scourge you to your children’s works, and will have mercy again on the sons of the righteous.  Give praise to YAHUAH, for He is good:  and praise the Everlasting King, that His Tabernacle may be built in you again with joy, and let him make joyful there in You those that are captives, and love in you those who are miserable.  Many nations shall come from far to the name of YAHUAH ELOHIYM with gifts in their hands, even gifts to the King of Heaven; all generations shall praise you with great joy.  Cursed are they which hate You, and blessed shall all be which love you forever.  Rejoice and be glad for the children of the just: for they shall be gathered together, and shall bless YAHUAH of the just.    O blessed are they which love You, for they shall rejoice in Your peace: blessed are they which have been sorrowful for all Your scourges; for they shall rejoice for You, when they have seen all Your glory, and shall be glad forever.  Let my soul bless Elohiym the great King.  For Yerushalayim shall be built up with sapphires and emeralds, and precious stone: your walls and towers and battlements with pure gold.  And the streets of Yerushalayim shall be paved with beryl and carbuncle and stones of Ophiyr.  And all her streets shall say, HALLELUYAH; and they shall praise Him saying, Blessed be Elohiym, which has extolled it forever.

Tobit (Toviyahu 13:1-18)

After Tobit finished praising YAHUAH, we learn that he was 58 years old at the time he lost his sight and it was restored 8 years later and lived 100 more years (Tobit 14:2 & 11).   When he was nearing death he called is son, and sons’ sons and gave them instruction to leave Niyneveh because of the destruction that was coming.  Then he died and was buried honorably.

Sometime later Channah dies and is buried with Tobit.  Then Toviyahu, Sarah and their children return to Ecbatane to Re’u’el’s home.  Imagine how much joy Re’u’el and Edna had when Toviyahu and Sarah returned with children!  That is was Edna asked Toviyahu to do before he left them 100 years before!  Edna was able to share in the joy of her daughter again and rejoice in their grandchildren..what a blessing.

Toviyahu grows old with honor and soon Re’u’el and Edna die and are buried.  He then inherited Re’u’el’s sustenance along with his own fathers.   Though the death of Sarah is not mentioned, we do know that Toviyahu was 127 years old when he died and he heard of the destruction of Niyneveh.

Although few details are given about the life of Sarah after she and Toviyahu are married and I have no doubt that she rejoiced in YAHUAH’s deliverance that He brought in her life.  She had wanted very much to be a wife and have children, but it just wasn’t time.   She did not try to rush the natural desire to be married by going after other men potentially staining her father’s name.  The book of Sirach (Ecclesiasticus) gives several encouragements about fathers and daughters:

The verses above are so powerful!  It is an encouragement to the father/daughter relationship.  The father covers the daughter, but she also has a choice-she can choose to be shameless, have loose behavior and become pregnant.  Sarah did not do this.  She stayed under the covering of her father, even when she was at a point of wishing for death.  Her father did not push her out of the house as she grew older either, but cared for her and then he was blessed with the joy of giving her to the man she was appointed for – Toviyahu.

Praise YAHUAH for this encouragement to fathers, mothers, sons and daughters!

Our next woman will be Sarah the wife of Avraham but not the Sarah you already know!  We will learn about her desperate prayer, her fear and the enemy.

Shabbat Message – A Question of Faith

Are you ready for change in your life?  Do you feel as if something isn’t right?  Have somethings happened to you that have opened the door in your heart to bitterness, hatred, strife and unforgiveness?

What is the role of forgiveness in our lives?  Are we able to allow YAHUAH to burn the flame of forgiveness in our lives to be free or are we choosing to be consumed with unforgiveness, bitterness, hatred and strife – preparing ourselves to burn in the flames of eternity?

This life changing, compelling Shabbat message brings up  and answers the Question About Faith.  Come listen and let the Father YAHUAH bring forth The Freedom that HE Desires For You in:  A Question of Faith.

What Mercy Did For Me?

Have you learned the truth about the Name of the Father and His Son, but have found yourself tired and frustrated, feeling weighed down by “current” correct word pronunciations?  Or laws that seem to bind your faith into joyless worship?  Or maybe no real worship or praise at all?  What happened to mercy?  What saves a person?

Be encouraged and changed in this excellent message What Mercy Did For Me?

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