I am finally ready to finish Sarah. It has taken me awhile because for nearly a year, I have carefully thought and lived some parts in my own way. It has been a great challenge to say the least.
Before I tell you about another prayer of Sarah, I want to give some background story with Avram (later Avraham). Avram was no stranger to dealing with the wicked one. When he was about 14 years old, he went among the people noticed that they were having a problem. The problem was that satan, caused some ravens to come and eat the seeds that the people tried to sow when they were planting them. Avram saw the birds coming and 70 times he commanded them to go away and they did. Then Avram showed the people how to sow and cover the seed up. Yovheliym (Jubliees) 11.
Later on when Avram is observing the stars (Yovheliym 12) and talking to YAHUAH, he prayed, ”My Elohim, El Elyon you alone are my Elohim, and you and your dominion have I chosen. And you have created all things, and all things that are the work of Your hands. Deliver me from the hands of evil ruachot who have dominion over the thoughts of men’s hearts, and let them not lead me astray from you, My Elohim. And establish me and my seed forever that we go not astray from henceforth and forevermore.” (Yovheliym 12:19-20) So he knew that wicked ruachot (wicked spirits) can have control over a man’s thoughts and he asked YAHUAH to not allow him to be lead astray by them.
Years, later Avram-now Avraham, came face to face with his enemy, but YAHUAH knew all the time what Avraham would do. In Yovehilym 17 and Yashar 22:46-55, satan came before YAHUAH and just like Iyov (Job), thought that he could challenge the faithfulness of Avraham so he insinuates that Avraham won’t serve YAHAUH if YAHUAH were to tell him (Avraham) to sacrifice his son. YAHUAH knew Avraham’s heart because he had been tested 10 times and found to be faithful each and every time. Now you know most of the rest of the story, YAHUAH told Avraham to go and sacrifice Yitschaq. Of course Avraham is obedient and tells Sarah he needed to take Yitschaq to go and learn about worship from Shem and Eber. We will come back to Sarah in a minute.
While on the road to the place that YAHUAH would show him (Yovehilym 23), satan appeared to Avraham in the form of “a very aged man, humble and of contrite ruach” and began to question what he was doing. Avraham recognized him and knew that satan was trying to stop him from being obedient to YAHUAH. So he rebuked him. Satan, not easily discouraged, appears to Yitshcaq in the “figure of young man comely and well favored.” Now he tries to get Yitschaq to doubt his father-even calling Avraham “a silly old man.” Yitschaq immediately tells Avraham and he again rebukes satan.
Finally now back to Sarah.
Avraham did not tell Sarah that he was going to sacrifice Yitschaq. He told her that “My son Yitschaq is grown up and he has not for some time studied the service of his Elohim, now tomorrow I will go and bring to Shem and Eber his son, and there he will learn the ways of YAHUAH, for they will teach him to know YAHUAH as well as to know that when he prays continually before YAHUAH, he will answer him, therefore there he will know the way of serving YAHUAH ELOHAYU (Yashar 23:5).”
Of course Sarah is supportive, but she asks that Yitschaq not go too far nor be gone too long because her soul is bound within in his.
I know that many people will say that because of this Yitschaq was a “momma’s boy” but between reading about the mom/son relationship between Rivqah/Ya’aqov and Sarah/ Yitschaq, I believe these mothers had a good healthy relationship with their grown sons.
So all that night (Yashar 23:6-19), she showed affection to Yitschaq and talked with him all night-weeping the whole time. In my opinion, it appears as though she believed he may die and she may not see him again. This was her greatest fear. In the morning, she gave him fine garments that she had received from Aviymelek years ago. She put a turban on his head and enclosed a precious stone in it. As Avraham, Yitschaq and the servants begin their journey to leave home, Sarah continued to weep.
Some days pass and after satan tried to stop Avraham from sacrificing Yitschaq (Yahsar 23:70-75), he then turned his attention to Sarah.
Next, in Yashar 23: 76-90 satan appears to her in the form “of an old man very humble and meek” speaking to her greatest fear and mixing it with lies. He tells her that Yitschaq her son is dead because Avraham had sacrificed him and that Avraham didn’t even cry. For great impact he said these things to her two times and then left her.
She thought perhaps this man was one from among those that went with Avraham who had returned to tell her these things and she beings to wept and cry out bitterly, throwing herself on the ground, casting dust upon her head. But let’s read her words carefully, particularly her words to YAHUAH:
That’s how I feel every time I read her words. She’d waited so long-nearly her entire life to have one son and now he is gone (at least she thought so)? But even in great sorrow she believed that if this happened that YAHUAH was in control of it all. She didn’t say that this was unfair and how horrible of a Father YAHUAH was for allowing this to happen…she said “You are just.” She had some serious faith to be able rejoice in great and immense sorrow, saying that her heart rejoices through her tears.
To honest, I don’t know if I could do that. I don’t know if I could say those words and see that YAHUAH’s will is greater than my heart’s greatest hurt.
So eventually, she gets up and begins to make inquires, sending servants here and there, but Avraham was one where to be found. But who do you think comes back again-satan.
This time he says that he spoke falsely saying that “Avraham did not kill his son and he is not dead (Yashar 23:86).”
So exceedingly excited violent was her joy, that her soul went out from her and she died.
Satan spoke to her deepest fear and stirred it (her fear) up against YAHUAH and against Avraham (saying that he didn’t even cry). What she could have done first, was say that Avraham would never sacrifice Yitschaq without a care. Then she could have prayed that YAHUAH would help her find them and then went looking for them. But that was not what happened.
Satan is still stirring up fears today. He gets us all worked up and them removes himself as we explode in fear, strive, arguments, toil, worry. Often we don’t recognize him because he comes in forms that are non-threatening. Chuah was threatened by the serpent-she had no reason to question his words at the time. Here Sarah was not threatened nor alarmed by “this old man.” In fact, he looked familiar as if he were one of the people who went with Avraham.
So satan comes up to us in ways we don’t recognize but we have to ask YAHUAH to give us discernment-so that we can see the “wiles of the devil.” We have to ask YAHUAH like Avraham to guard our thoughts from the control of evil spirits. We must use logic and know the facts – like Avraham loved his son, he would not sacrifice him without a care. In fact, when reading Yashar 23, you will see he struggled a great bit and was in great anguish. We have to know facts about the person or situation, before getting upset. If we don’t know we have to find out.
I kept the above in my mind a few months ago, when I found a lump on my left side. I have many of the markers for breast cancer (family history and tubal ligation) so I am always being diligent to watch for any issues. So for few weeks while waiting for my diagnostic mammogram, I had moments of great fear. But my husband and I prayed, and I tried to say that if this is YAHUAH’s will then His purpose will be done. Thankfully nothing was found though the mass is still there.
Whether it is fear, a disagreement, a disappointment, a concern or worry, we have to seek YAHUAH first, know Him through His Word and trust that He is in control no matter what. We must also stay on guard, because just when we think we are aware of the wicked ones tactics, he changes them and we can be left to figure out what has happened in our lives.
Alright, I don’t know who or when the next woman will be, YAHUAH willing won’t be too long.