He Always Hears Me
If I could,
I’d climb the uppermost mountain in the world.
I’d stand on its uppermost peak
and I’d shout as loud as I could:
YAHUAH, CAN YOU HEAR ME?
What do You want from me?
What is going on down here?
What is the purpose of pain?
What is the purpose of loneliness?
What is it that I need to do differently?
What is Your purpose for me?
What is Your plan for this situation?
What do You want me to do?
What are You going to do with all the wickedness that is abounding?
What changes do I need to make?
What do I need to do to know that You are here?
What have I done to displease You?
What can I do for Your mercy?
If I could,
I’d climb the highest mountain in the world.
I’d stand on its highest peak
and I’d yell as loud as I could:
YAHUAH, CAN You hear me?
Where are You?
Do You see me?
What are You going to do about this situation?
Where are other believers?
Where is my deliverance?
When are things going to change?
What’s wrong with me?
Why is there so much pain in life?
If I could,
I’d climb the tallest mountain in the world.
I’d stand on its tallest peak
and I’d bellow as loud as I could:
How am I to live my life before You?
How do I let my light shine, in times like these?
How do I encourage my husband?
How do I reassure our kids?
How can I better example?
How can I be a better friend?
How can I make better choices?
I lay down,
realizing that I don’t need to go anywhere.
YAHUAH hears me.
He hears me
ALL THE TIME,
But I don’t always hear Him.
I miss His voice.
I miss His voice because I am looking in the wrong places,
I miss His voice because I am too busy,
I miss His voice because I don’t want to accept His answer,
I miss His voice because it doesn’t sound like I want it to-
you know the one we all listen for –
THE BIG BOOMING VOICE!
But He speaks through the smallest of whispers,
He speaks through the tears of a friend,
He speaks through the prayers of a husband,
He speaks through handmade cards,
He speaks through the cords of a song,
He speaks through the smiles of a child,
He speaks through the strangest of dreams,
He speaks through the unexpected hugs-big and small,
He speaks through the chirping of the birds,
He speaks through the tear-jerking moments in movies,
He speaks through the beauty of the sunrise,
He speaks through the calm in a storm,
He speaks through the closed doors,
He speaks through the open windows,
He speaks through the testimonies of overcomers…
Through all my questions,
He always hears me.
Written by: A Joyful Womanhood 6/15/2019 4:00pm
She was a wise woman I am sure. She sold fine cloth and must have carefully interacted with those around her. She took time every week for what was most important to her, worship and prayer with others near the river on the Sabbath. We don’t know her prayers or who exactly accompanied her but she wasn’t alone, members of her household were there too.
This Sabbath, was no ordinary Sabbath, YAHUAH had something for Lydia on this day. He opened her heart to receive the good news of Messiah/Mashiach in her life through Sha’ul! YAHUSHA knocked on the door of her heart and she willing received Him in! She wasn’t alone in receiving YAHUSHA, people around were immersed at the same time she was!
Like her, sometimes it is time for us to go a step farther in our faith. We may have been worshiping YAHUAH for many years but now our life needs a change as did Lydia’s and others.
When YAHUAH comes and directs something to me or shares something with me, will I keep going about my ordinary day OR will I stop to receive what He has for me? Will I share what He has given me OR keep it to myself? Will I open my heart and home?
Based upon Ma’aseh (Acts) 16:6-15
Seems like no one is listening?
Does the heavenly Father, even hear the cry of women?
Doesn’t He see the problems in our lives?
Does He even care?
Doesn’t He see I am at the end of my rope?
Yes He does. Three woman. Three encounters. Three deliverance’s. Three stories of hope and encouragement to us today.
So if you feel broken, discouraged, disappointed, worn down, or hopeless, YAHUAH has sent a word to you today! Watch and listen to this Shabbat Message: The Broken Woman.
Sometimes the answer to an issue we are praying about is right in front of our face, but we are looking every where else, trying anything else but that one answer!
That’s what we have experienced recently.
We were trying to do something a while back and an option came for us to go a certain way but it was a different way that we were not as familiar with. So we chose to stay on the more familiar route, based on our previous success. However, months later, we were tired, frustrated and at our wits end. We were at the point of giving up, when we decided to look into that unfamiliar option again. This option which had been available all along was much easier and stress free. We could have saved time, money, emotional toil, and lessened the challenges, had we chosen this option sooner.
Yet we were the hold up because desiring our own ways and not wanting to give up this or that was blocking us from moving forward.
Then when we let go of the wheel, when we gave up, we surrendered our will, YAHUAH moved in miraculous ways. He provided for us in numerous ways. And His answer was there all along, we just had to let go.
Then one day it seemed as if nothing was going to work. First we hit one road block but we were able to find a potential path around. Then a few hours later, a second road block came-only it was higher than the first one.
Earlier this week, I remember laying in the bed, thinking I am so tired. I give up. I have to accept this “no” for now.
Then, His truth crumbled the first road block, correcting wrong information. A day or so later, YAHUAH’s grace demolished the second road block and His mercy shined down upon us. Then He, unexpectedly poured down even more grace upon us. Though it came through people, we know that at every point He was behind it.
YAHUAH’s grace on us.
All week long, I’ve thought about these situations, which completely turned around unexpectedly. I am change by them. As I reflect on the timing when this event started in our life, I see His hand was there. Most of the time I refused to see it, but He was still there. I know He hears me and has my best in His plans. All things work together for our good…the no’s, delays, challenges, frustrations and even some of our own decisions – all worked in our behalf – although we couldn’t see it.
He still moves mountains even today.
For me and you.
For all who believe.
Now, not all situations will work out similarly or according to our own earthly plans, most don’t even come close, but since YAHUAH’s plans for me are better than I can plan for myself, it is best to submit to His will.
Just because our prayers were answered close to our desires, doesn’t mean the answer is without it’s own challenges. There were somethings we had to let go of, some compromises we had to accept and some changes we had to and still have to make. We can’t see what YAHUAH has for us as we go in this direction, but I know His best-is best.
We’d watched this movie before, but this time when we watched it, I felt like I had a bunch of fingers pointed at me.
Specifically one scene, is one that YAHUAH used to bring about change in my heart. The movie was WarRoom and the scene I am referring to is when the old wise woman, Mrs. Clara came back in the room and asked Elizabeth “Did you finish your list?”
Elizabeth responds by saying that she had a lot more to say and how her husband had offended her so many times and she goes on and on!
Mrs. Clara then asked her how much she prayed for her husband.
Elizabeth admitted she really didn’t pray for him.
Earlier that week same week that we watched WarRoom, we’d had a spat again. And once again, I ran upstairs, slammed the door and grabbed my journal and started writing. After a few minutes of writing out my “prayer” I went back and read old entries.
They were nearly the same.
I had been writing the same sad words for years. Why? Oh sometimes the entries looked like prayers but really it was me having my own pity party complaining to YAHUAH. Woe, is me…Why me..When will he…the same thing over and over.
So that night, I thought, if I am writing the same things, maybe I need to do something different.
Right at the end of that scene in War Room, YAHUAH directed me to get rid of all my journals. He said that by writing my complaints in my journals, I was harboring unforgiveness towards my husband.
I thought I had forgiven him, but not really. Not from my heart.
See if I really had forgiven him, I wouldn’t be holding his past mistakes as ammunition for our next disagreement. I wouldn’t be keeping a tally mark for what “I” saw as wrong. So I shared what YAHUAH had said with my husband and I threw away my journals. Now when I pray in my journals, I am not writing a list of complaints, nor “woe is me” entries but rather lifting him up and changing my anger in to prayers.
Which leads me to share #3 – See Change
YAHUAH also opened my eyes to see how much my husband had truly changed. He really is not the same man I married nearly 15 years ago – and I am H-A-P-P-Y about that! Praise YAHUAH. YAHUAH began to show me his awesome qualities and things that I truly needed to be thankful for. For example, he is not out running the streets with his “boys” he loves being at home – he is a “home hubby.” He loves YAHUAH and worships Him. He reads the scriptures to us. He prays with and for us. He is crazy about me and an awesome father. He is good with our finances – I don’t worry whether or not stuff is getting paid – I know he takes good care of us. He is funny and is a good bowler. He is self-sacrificing.
In the last year, I have come to love him more than ever. I no longer magnify nor focus on his faults. Instead I pray for him and try to honor him more. I have also read many encouraging blogs and articles that have helped me to see things differently (I will share books and blogs in another post.)
So today, fellow wives, truly and continually forgive your husband and see how much YAHUAH has changed him and you.
This week, as I was reading the Purim story to our children, some of Ecter’s (Ester’s) words and actions jumped out at me.
By her position and her relationship, Ecter could have approached the King any kind of way. Hear her impeccable wisdom. She knew that her need was so dire that she must first prepare for her interaction with him. She doesn’t prepare alone-but with the help of her people through three days of prayer and fasting together.
Then when the time was right, she went to see him. She was dressed in her royal garment, standing in the inner court, waiting. She wasn’t jumping around, pacing back and forth. She waited patiently. Her patience pays off because when the King sees her, he immediately favors her and extends his golden scepter toward her.
Then when she walked toward him, she touched the top of his golden scepter and he asked her what was her request-he was ready to give her anything she wanted.
Here is my part-she didn’t assume that because of her position, her relationship, nor even his words that he had just spoken that she should just bring the accusation against Haman. She doesn’t even assume that his favor would grant any desire her in this request.
Humbly she says:
“If it seem good unto the king,”
“Well, King you need to do something about Haman…”
“Haman is going to ……..”
Ecter’s(Ester’s) words remind me of a song on my heart right now by Tasha Cobbs Leonard called “For Your Glory.” The opening words are this (the Name of the Father is corrected here):
“YAHUAH if I have found favor in Your sight…YAHUAH please hear my humble cry, I am desperately waiting…”
This is key for me. A few weeks ago, during family prayer time, I prayed a prayer stating all the things that we do/have done and saying that because we do this then YAHUAH must answer the way that I wanted Him to. Shortly after, I felt a nudging from the Ruach saying that this was not be an acceptable way to pray. Yes I was desperate, I wanted and needed YAHUAH to move on our behalf but demanding anything from YAHUAH as if this a relationship based off a game of tag..is wrong.
YAHUAH moves in un-explainable ways. I surely cannot know or even pretend to grasp His thoughts. So like the song and Ecter(Ester), I have chosen to take a different route in prayer. Cry out for help yes, but I must often wait for His answer and not assume that just because I am His daughter that I can demand anything.
So unassuming, humbly I pray…
YAHUAH, if I have found favor in Your sight, can You please…”
and then I wait.
I wait and hope.
I listen for His voice, I know that He hears me and that His Faithfulness is Great.
Lately, when things have been happening that are concerning and I find myself in need of encouragement, I often read the Cepher of Chanok, Esda 4 and The Cepher of Baruk Sheniy also called Baruk 2. These three books are powerful in describing the end times. In my opinion they further back up and are in conjunction with words that YAHUSHA HaMashiach spoke, Sha’ul, Yachucanon, Kepha and the prophets wrote. If you have not read them, I highly implore to read them – you will not only be blessed but your belief will grow and you will be encouraged.
One day recently, I was just beginning to read Baruk 2 and I found some words. Before I tell you the words I want to give you a background on Baruk.
Baruk was a prophet during the time of Yirmeyahu and they had a good brotherly relationship and cried out for the sins of their people. There are two cephers written by him. 1 Baruk opens during fifth year, seventh day of a month when the Kadiym took Yerushalayim while Yahuyaqiym king of Yahudah was ruling. He was the son Neriyahu, the son of Ma’aseyahu, the son of Cedekyahu, the son of Acadyahu, the son Qelkyahu. He wrote Baruk 1 while they were in Babel, and read it in the hearing of the Yahuyaqiym, the nobles, the kings sons, the elders and all who dwelt by the river Cud. After reading it they wept, fasted, prayed, took up an offering and sent it to Yerushalayim to ask for somethings and to ask for prayer repenting of their sins of not obeying YAHUAH. In Chapter 2:21-35 YAHUAH responds to their prayer, giving them instruction. In Chapter 3, I believe that Baruk starts praying and encourages the people to turn to YAHUAH. Here are some of my favorite words he says:
“I have put off the clothing of peace, and put upon me the sackcloth of my prayer: I will cry unto the Everlasting in my days. Be of good cheer, O my children, cry unto YAHUAH, and He will deliver you from the power and hand of the enemies. For my hope is in the Everlasting, that He will save you; and joy is come unto me from the Holy One, because of the mercy which shall soon come unto you from the Everlasting our Saviour.” 1 Baruk 4:20-22
2 Baruk opens during the twenty fifth year of Yekonyahu, King of Yahudah when YAHUAH speaks to Baruk. Before I tell you what is said here, I highly encourage you to read 2 Baruk, the conversation between YAHUAH and Baruk is fascinating. Baruk is told to fast many times, then he is shown many things and he asks YAHUAH questions and YAHUAH answers him! AWESOME and Eye-Opening are the things that are revealed to Baruk.
Anyways, in 2 Baruk Chapter 1, YAHUAH talks about the sins that the two tribes have been committing and they “will be scattered among other people” and that they will be “chastened.” Now in 2 Baruk Chapter 2, YAHUAH says:
“For I have said these things to you that you may bid Yirmeyahu, and all those that are like you, to retire from this city. For your works are to this city as a firm pillar, and your prayers as a strong wall.”
YAHUAH said that Baruks prayers are as a strong wall! Those are some serious prayers. I don’t know all of his prayers, but I don’t believe that they were haphazard prayers. Futhermore based upon 1 Baruk Chapters 3, 4 and 5 and the recorded prayers in 2 Baruk, I believe that his prayers were honest, open, humble, repentful, always extolling YAHUAH and asking for mercy. He is often weeping for the sins of the people and the affliction of Tsiyon.
After reading these words, I have been encouraged to pray more and more. I want my prayers to become a strong wall.