If…

This week, as I was reading the Purim story to our children, some of Ecter’s (Ester’s) words and actions jumped out at me.

By her position and her relationship, Ecter could have approached the King any kind of way.  Hear her impeccable wisdom.  She knew that her need was so dire that she must first prepare for her interaction with him.  She doesn’t prepare alone-but with the help of her people through three days of prayer and fasting together.

Then when the time was right, she went to see him.  She was dressed in her royal garment, standing in the inner court, waiting.  She wasn’t jumping around, pacing back and forth.  She waited patiently.  Her patience pays off because when the King sees her, he immediately favors her and extends his golden scepter toward her.

Then when she walked toward him, she touched the top of his golden scepter and he asked her what was her request-he was ready to give her anything she wanted.

Here is my part-she didn’t assume that because of her position, her relationship, nor even his words that he had just spoken that she should just bring the accusation against Haman.  She doesn’t even assume that his favor would grant any desire her in this request.

Humbly she says:

“If it seem good unto the king,”

Not:

“Well, King you need to do something about Haman…”

Not screaming:

“Haman is going to ……..”

Ecter’s(Ester’s) words remind me of a song on my heart right now by Tasha Cobbs Leonard called “For Your Glory.”  The opening words are this (the Name of the Father is corrected here):

“YAHUAH if I have found favor in Your sight…YAHUAH please hear my humble cry, I am desperately waiting…”

This is key for me.  A few weeks ago, during family prayer time, I prayed  a prayer stating all the things that we do/have done and saying that because we do this then YAHUAH must  answer the way that I wanted Him to.  Shortly after, I felt a nudging from the Ruach saying that this was not be an acceptable way to pray.  Yes I was desperate, I wanted and needed YAHUAH to move on our behalf but demanding anything from YAHUAH  as if this a relationship based off a game of tag..is wrong.

YAHUAH moves in un-explainable ways.  I surely cannot know or even pretend to grasp His thoughts.  So like the song and Ecter(Ester), I have chosen to take a different route in prayer.  Cry out for help yes, but I must often wait for His answer and not assume that just because I am His daughter that I can demand anything.

So unassuming, humbly I pray…

YAHUAH, if I have found favor in Your sight, can You please…”

and then I wait.

I wait and hope.

I listen for His voice, I know that He hears me and that His Faithfulness is Great.

 

 

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