What YAHUAH is Teaching Me Through Our Children

I’ve always wanted to be a mother and I am thankful that YAHUAH has given us five wonderful kids.  Before we had kids, I never thought that I could learn from them.  However, as the years continue to pass, I am finding that YAHUAH is teaching me many things through them.

Our Oldest Child (Daughter): I am learning to accept and to let go

I’ll never forget the day, our daughter said, “Why can’t you accept my hair the way it is!”  I believe her hair looks awesome pulled up in a ponytail, but she doesn’t like it like that at all.   Since that day, I accepted that she is different from me and she can like her hair.  In many ways she is different from me.  She likes to build, she plays guitar and piano, she is very independent.  I accept her the way that she is and was created and I don’t try to fit her into my box of opinions.

At one point we were struggling in homeschool.  One of our daughters was pretty sick and it affected our school day.  I didn’t want her (the sick daughter) to feel left behind, so I would wait to do our group subjects until days that she felt good enough.  Well our oldest daughter, was ready to take off.  She was absorbing everything around and she was starting to feel like she was being held back.  So instead of making her continue to wait for her sister to feel better, I began to let her work at her own pace.  In many subjects she completed her work so efficiently, that I had to create additional assignments for her!  The more I let go, the faster and easier she began to grow.  Now she is in the 9th grade (completing 10th grade work), she is composing music and prepping for college!!!!

Our Second Child (Daughter) – I am learning to see beauty is everywhere

Until our second daughter was born, I didn’t like pink, flowers were okay and I barely noticed anything pretty.  However as a baby she loved pink and pretty things.  Now as a 12 year old, she sees beauty in every sunrise and sunset.  She notices the flowers blooming, the myriad array of colors in everything and the smallest detail catches her attention.  I never noticed YAHUAH created such beauty, even, in creepy crawly things, until He blessed us with her.  She is also our resident weather lady, science and history buff.

Our Third Child (Daughter) – I am learning that I need joy

On my first ultrasound, with our third daughter, she appeared to be bouncing around waving.  She is usually smiling and bouncing around exploding with joy all day.  She is a continual reminder that “The joy of YAHUAH is my strength.”

Our Fourth Child (Son) – I have learned that nothing is beyond repair or reuse

I call him “Mr. Fix-it”, our fourth child, shows us continually that although something looks like it is broken, it is often fixable.  He is often fixing remote control cars and  creating something out of “junk or trash.”  YAHUAH is in the business of fixing us all the time.  When others see that we aren’t worth their time to help, YAHUAH sees us as a person, ripe for His re-molding.

Our Fifth Child (Son) – I am learning about Grace

One day when our first son was about 9 months old, I was swinging him, next to a lady who had two sons.  As I watched them, I saw that our son needed a brother and so in that moment, I prayed that YAHUAH would give us a son.  A few weeks later, we were pregnant again, with a son.  From his birth this son, has been very demanding.  He automatically stands up for his-self, he is very attentive but he can be a big challenge too.  As I watch him and sometimes wonder what I could do better, so that he will act better, I remember Grace.  Even when I am at my worst, YAHUAH still loves me.  He doesn’t withhold the sun shining because of my actions but in spite of me, He showed His love by sending His own Son to die for my sins;  Grace.  Even though sometimes I feel like I can’t take the challenge of our son, I realize that he needs another Measure of Grace.  Sometimes I just hug him.  Sometimes I have him help me do chores.  Sometimes I simply overlook his actions, knowing that this phase must surely pass (one day).  We know that YAHUAH has a Great Purpose for him, so we often pray for him and let him know that We Love Him No Matter What.

I believe YAHUAH is teaching us in every situation and through many people.  If we just take time, open our eyes and see His hand and His voice are with us, directing us everyday.

 

Grace Never Ends

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A few weeks ago I heard a song by People and Songs Never Wanna Go Back and it has been on my mind nearly everyday since then.  The song talks about freedom, living free from guilt, that things are working for our good and about grace.  YAHUAH’s grace is unlimited, it doesn’t expire, there is no timelimit, it doesn’t run out, it doesn’t get old…it is eternal.

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Which Torah Do You Choose?

Romans 3, 4 and 5 contrasts two torah’s – The Torah of Works verses The Torah of Faith.  So we have a choice to make – which Torah do we choose – the one which results in death or the one that results in life.  I choose life.

 

Talk To Me About Grace

Sometimes in life we are hinder our healing, deliverance, and/or change in our lives.  Sometimes we just need to let go and let YAHUAH work in our lives.

This week’s Shabbat Message: Talk To Me About Grace will encourage you to move beyond the opinions of others and your own excuses, to receive what you have been trying to reach for and to know fully that what YAHUAH gives is without cost.

It is time to believe, it is time to pray, it is time to let go, to press forward and allow His love to fill our hearts, which transcends all sin.

Shabbat Message: The Simplicity of Messiah (Christ)

Complicated.

That’s what salvation has become.

Simple, true salvation has become buried under Torah keeping, man-made laws, traditions, so -called “new” insights, classes for salvation, words that are always changing, do this, don’t do that, moons, new moons, calendars, clothing, reading, regulations of worship, prayers rooted in the Talmud…placing a yoke of bondage or completely blocking the free gift of grace.

Those things that complicate salvation suck the Joy Out of Grace and pollute our life in Messiah how it can truly be lived.

But when a person just reads the bible-the words of The Messiah for him/herself, they will find none of that.  They find freedom.  That’s what we need to get back to.

In this week’s Shabbat Message: The Simplicity of Messiah (Christ) – you will hear about salvation, plain and simple.  You will see clearly that Love is passed down through Grace and the life changing encounter that the Good News Brings.

I was particularly encouraged to hear and read a portion of scripture that shows a truly awesome testimony of a man who beat two followers of Messiah, but later found himself asking “what must I do to be saved?”  Salvation was presented to him and his house hold, immediately, simply, and they were baptized.

If you need water for your soul, if you need to hear the good news simple and uncluttered, if you want your freedom back, I encourage you to listen to this week’s Shabbat Message: The Simplicity of Messiah (Christ).

 

Shabbat Message: Grace and Mercy

We have been given many rich and immeasurable gifts from YAHUAH.

The gifts of Grace and Mercy are some that are new everyday and YAHUAH never runs out of them.  There is nothing we can do for these gifts.  We can’t keep enough laws to receive them.  We can’t do enough good deeds to keep them.  We can only stand with our arms open and our arms raised to His Glorious love and receive them.

These gifts are not for us to take for granted nor abuse.  They are for us to receive and give to others.  Sometimes though we can get in the way of receiving YAHUAH’s Grace and Mercy as a result of our own thoughts and ways of doing things or self-righteousness.  Yet even still in our stubbornness, YAHUAH extends Grace and Mercy to us time and time again, without fail.

What ways can we show Grace and Mercy to others?  What does the Bible say?   What changes do we need to make to allow YAHUAH’s Grace and Mercy to shine in our lives to be imparted to others?

This week’s Shabbat Message: Grace and Mercy, is one that you must listen to if we expect to live  with purpose and passion for the Father YAHUAH and His Son YAHUSHA Messiah.

If…

This week, as I was reading the Purim story to our children, some of Ecter’s (Ester’s) words and actions jumped out at me.

By her position and her relationship, Ecter could have approached the King any kind of way.  Hear her impeccable wisdom.  She knew that her need was so dire that she must first prepare for her interaction with him.  She doesn’t prepare alone-but with the help of her people through three days of prayer and fasting together.

Then when the time was right, she went to see him.  She was dressed in her royal garment, standing in the inner court, waiting.  She wasn’t jumping around, pacing back and forth.  She waited patiently.  Her patience pays off because when the King sees her, he immediately favors her and extends his golden scepter toward her.

Then when she walked toward him, she touched the top of his golden scepter and he asked her what was her request-he was ready to give her anything she wanted.

Here is my part-she didn’t assume that because of her position, her relationship, nor even his words that he had just spoken that she should just bring the accusation against Haman.  She doesn’t even assume that his favor would grant any desire her in this request.

Humbly she says:

“If it seem good unto the king,”

Not:

“Well, King you need to do something about Haman…”

Not screaming:

“Haman is going to ……..”

Ecter’s(Ester’s) words remind me of a song on my heart right now by Tasha Cobbs Leonard called “For Your Glory.”  The opening words are this (the Name of the Father is corrected here):

“YAHUAH if I have found favor in Your sight…YAHUAH please hear my humble cry, I am desperately waiting…”

This is key for me.  A few weeks ago, during family prayer time, I prayed  a prayer stating all the things that we do/have done and saying that because we do this then YAHUAH must  answer the way that I wanted Him to.  Shortly after, I felt a nudging from the Ruach saying that this was not be an acceptable way to pray.  Yes I was desperate, I wanted and needed YAHUAH to move on our behalf but demanding anything from YAHUAH  as if this a relationship based off a game of tag..is wrong.

YAHUAH moves in un-explainable ways.  I surely cannot know or even pretend to grasp His thoughts.  So like the song and Ecter(Ester), I have chosen to take a different route in prayer.  Cry out for help yes, but I must often wait for His answer and not assume that just because I am His daughter that I can demand anything.

So unassuming, humbly I pray…

YAHUAH, if I have found favor in Your sight, can You please…”

and then I wait.

I wait and hope.

I listen for His voice, I know that He hears me and that His Faithfulness is Great.