I’ve always wanted to be a mother and I am thankful that YAHUAH has given us five wonderful kids. Before we had kids, I never thought that I could learn from them. However, as the years continue to pass, I am finding that YAHUAH is teaching me many things through them.
Our Oldest Child (Daughter): I am learning to accept and to let go
I’ll never forget the day, our daughter said, “Why can’t you accept my hair the way it is!” I believe her hair looks awesome pulled up in a ponytail, but she doesn’t like it like that at all. Since that day, I accepted that she is different from me and she can like her hair. In many ways she is different from me. She likes to build, she plays guitar and piano, she is very independent. I accept her the way that she is and was created and I don’t try to fit her into my box of opinions.
At one point we were struggling in homeschool. One of our daughters was pretty sick and it affected our school day. I didn’t want her (the sick daughter) to feel left behind, so I would wait to do our group subjects until days that she felt good enough. Well our oldest daughter, was ready to take off. She was absorbing everything around and she was starting to feel like she was being held back. So instead of making her continue to wait for her sister to feel better, I began to let her work at her own pace. In many subjects she completed her work so efficiently, that I had to create additional assignments for her! The more I let go, the faster and easier she began to grow. Now she is in the 9th grade (completing 10th grade work), she is composing music and prepping for college!!!!
Our Second Child (Daughter) – I am learning to see beauty is everywhere
Until our second daughter was born, I didn’t like pink, flowers were okay and I barely noticed anything pretty. However as a baby she loved pink and pretty things. Now as a 12 year old, she sees beauty in every sunrise and sunset. She notices the flowers blooming, the myriad array of colors in everything and the smallest detail catches her attention. I never noticed YAHUAH created such beauty, even, in creepy crawly things, until He blessed us with her. She is also our resident weather lady, science and history buff.
Our Third Child (Daughter) – I am learning that I need joy
On my first ultrasound, with our third daughter, she appeared to be bouncing around waving. She is usually smiling and bouncing around exploding with joy all day. She is a continual reminder that “The joy of YAHUAH is my strength.”
Our Fourth Child (Son) – I have learned that nothing is beyond repair or reuse
I call him “Mr. Fix-it”, our fourth child, shows us continually that although something looks like it is broken, it is often fixable. He is often fixing remote control cars and creating something out of “junk or trash.” YAHUAH is in the business of fixing us all the time. When others see that we aren’t worth their time to help, YAHUAH sees us as a person, ripe for His re-molding.
Our Fifth Child (Son) – I am learning about Grace
One day when our first son was about 9 months old, I was swinging him, next to a lady who had two sons. As I watched them, I saw that our son needed a brother and so in that moment, I prayed that YAHUAH would give us a son. A few weeks later, we were pregnant again, with a son. From his birth this son, has been very demanding. He automatically stands up for his-self, he is very attentive but he can be a big challenge too. As I watch him and sometimes wonder what I could do better, so that he will act better, I remember Grace. Even when I am at my worst, YAHUAH still loves me. He doesn’t withhold the sun shining because of my actions but in spite of me, He showed His love by sending His own Son to die for my sins; Grace. Even though sometimes I feel like I can’t take the challenge of our son, I realize that he needs another Measure of Grace. Sometimes I just hug him. Sometimes I have him help me do chores. Sometimes I simply overlook his actions, knowing that this phase must surely pass (one day). We know that YAHUAH has a Great Purpose for him, so we often pray for him and let him know that We Love Him No Matter What.
I believe YAHUAH is teaching us in every situation and through many people. If we just take time, open our eyes and see His hand and His voice are with us, directing us everyday.