Condiment or Foundation

The other day, I had the opportunity to observe a good number of people in different settings.  As I observed I noticed that in nearly every interaction with each other, the facilities, and visitors, they were authentic.  Their faith was not something that was just poured on like a condiment, giving a taste but not the key ingredient.

So I began to think, do I sprinkle in bible phrases/words/action at random/when convenient or when I speak/interact is it from my heart?  Are my words from a heart that has been truly changed?  Or am I just familiar with faith enough to seem to have the appearance of faith but posses no real root?

If someone were to observe me, would they see that my faith is the foundation of life or a condiment?


Living Ready or Relaxed

Standing in the kitchen the other day, I stopped and looked around.  The daily clean-up was getting done, but not the deep cleaning.  As I went about my tasks of preparing for Sabbath, I noticed every room in our house had the same problem.   It used to be done but when did it stop?

Then I remembered that at one point we had our house on the market and we lived in ready mode.  We never knew when an agent would request a showing so we kept our house “show ready” at all times (except the Sabbath).  Everyone willingly helped and did their best to clean up and not make too many messes.

If you have ever sold a home, you may know that people will look through all your stuff and it is best to clean – everything!  So we did.  Our house was very clean.  When we received feedback, buyers often said “The house is in good condition and very clean.”

However now…daily chores are half-hardheartedly done and those other deeper cleaning ones seem to get pushed back to another day-day after day.

While it wasn’t our time to sell, the time we were on the market was important.  I learned numerous things:

  • We should be living ready for either the return of the Messiah, whether that is through going to sleep in the dust of the earth or at His appearance.
    • Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great Elohim and our Saviour YAHUSHA HAMASHIACH – Titus 2:13
  • When we are living ready, we work to keep the rooms of our heart free from clutter and dirt (sin).
    • Clean and undefiled religion before the Elohim and the Father is this: to visit the orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself unstained from the world.” James 1:27
  • When we live ready, we carefully choose the things that are most important to do – we prioritize our time.  We set time to pray, worship, read the Word and help others.
    • “But seek first the reign of Elohim, and His righteousness, and all these shall be added to you.” Matthew 6:33
  • When we live ready, we don’t just allow anything into our hearts.
    • Keep your heart with all diligence; for out it are the issues of life.” Proverbs 4:23
    • “For out of the heart come forth wicked reasonings, murders, adulteries, whorings, thefts, false witnessings, slanders.” Matthew 15:19
  • Do we allow the Set-Apart Spirit and the Word to clean areas in our minds, hearts, and spirits? Do we allow areas that hold storage’s of bitterness, unforgiveness, anger, rejection and fear to be exposed and cleaned?  Or, do we only have a surface cleaning of our minds, hearts and spirits-only producing faith that is outward (saying the right verses at the right time, saying we are praying) without real life change?
    • “For the Word of Elohim is living, and working, and sharper than any two-edged sword, cutting through even to the dividing of being and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12
  • Do we allow ourselves to be stretched, molded and shaped by the hands of the Master?  Or are we comfortable and relaxed, not willing to go beyond where we are now?
    • “And now, O YAHUAH, You are our Father.  We are the clay, and You our potter.  And we are the work of Your hand.” Isaiah 64:8
  • Are we letting go of things that hinder us or are we holding on to things out of fear and safety?
    • “We too, then, having so great a cloud of witnesses all around, lay us aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race set before us, looking to the Prince and Perfecter of our belief, YAHUSHA, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, having despised the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of Elohim.” Hebrews 12:1-2
  • Are we choosing to be filled as we walk in the spirit with its fruit or are we choosing to be filled according to the world becoming friends of it?
    • “Adulterers and adulteresses! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with Elohim?  Whoever therefore intends to be a friend of world makes himself an enemy of Elohim.” James 4:4
  • Are we choosing to become a reflection of His character or choosing to be conformed to the world?
    • “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you prove what is that good and well-pleasing and perfect desire of Elohim.” Romans 12:2
  • Are we dying daily to self and sin, or are we playing with salvation by repenting one day and still choosing to sin again the next day?
    • “And He said to them all, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily and follow.” Luke 9:23
  • Are we following the Set-Apart Spirit’s leading in allowing sanctification to take place continually or are we procrastinating and putting off repentance and salvation, until we are ready for it?
    • Wash me completely from my guilt, and cleanse me from my sin.” Psalms 51:2
    • “And such were some of you. But you were washed, but you were set apart, but you were declared right in the Name of the Master YAHUSHA and the Spirit of our Elohim.” 1 Corinthians 6:11
    • “Let us draw near with a true heart in completeness of belief having our hearts sprinkled from a wicked conscience and our bodies washed with clean water.” Hebrews 10:22
    • “But when the kindness and the love of Elohim our Saviour toward man appeared, He saved us, not by works of righteousness which we have done but according to His compassion, through the washing of rebirth, and renewal by the Set-apart Spirit, which He poured out on us richly through YAHUSHA Messiah our Saviour, that having been declared right by His grace we should become heirs according to the expectation of everlasting life.” Titus 3:5
    • “Now that you have cleansed your lives in obeying the truth through the Spirit to unfeigned brotherly love, love one another fervently with a clean heart, having been born again – not of corruptible seed, but incorruptible – through the living Word of Elohim, which remains forever,” 1 Peter 1:22-23
    • “For he in whom these are not present is blind, being shortsighted, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his old sins.” 1 Peter 1:9
  • If YAHUSHA our Messiah would come to our home, what would He find? Would He find our hearts in order or will He find them full of the cares of the world?

I want to be found living ready, what about you?

Overcoming Emotional Eating

Here again, I was standing in the pantry, looking through the shelves, thinking “there has got to be some chips in here somewhere.  Where are they???”

I didn’t need them.

But I was stressed. Or maybe depressed. Or feeling hopeless. Or defeated…or something.

Whatever it was, I needed a distraction and chips seemed to be the perfect solution.  Finally, I spotted them and as I started reaching for them, I felt YAHUAH’s Spirit saying “pray through.”

Pray through?  Why?  Pray what?

Slowly I walked out of the pantry and began to pray.

This happens frequently, almost daily in some form.  When I was pregnant with our second daughter years ago, I read about emotional eating and I started paying more attention to what, when and why I was eating.  Keeping this focus has helped many times over the years.  Sometimes I succeeded and sometimes I failed.

Recently though as I was thinking about how much discipline it takes to stay in Ketosis (I‘ve been off and on Keto for over a year now).  I realized it’s not just my own choice to use self-control, but in that moment that I want to eat something, I have other choices.  The choices are: to pray asking for YAHUAH’s help in the situation(s) that is/are going on; to praise because it takes the focus off of me; and/or to stand still because sometimes it is a spiritual battle, therefore speaking The Word does helps mightily.

YAHUAH is helping me to see that food cannot solve the problem, nor can it help.  It rather causes more problems.  When I choice to indulge in eating chips (I cannot eat just one), I usually feel my blood sugars go up very high nearly immediately (Diabetes 2 runs in my family and praise YAHUAH through diet I have been able avoid it), my stomach might start to feel like there are rocks in it (which happens with many chip brands) and if I continue over a few days/weeks then I will have weight increase.  Is the temporary, deceitful, empty filling of chips and the momentary perceived satisfaction really worth it?


Following YAHUAH’s leading is the best choice to make.  Not only does it do away with the physical consequences but every time I choose to submit to Him and lean on Him, I grow more in relationship with Him.  I’ve seen Him fight battles and change situations around.  As I choose to become humble and pray to Him saying that “I don’t know what to do” or “this is too much for me” and allow His peace to rest in me, I know that I can stay free from emotional eating.  Should I fall, as it sometimes happens, I can make a Life-Turn and get back on track with Him again.

I love the effects of choosing to not let food be my comfort!  I am gaining a stronger and closer relationship with Him, relying on His comfort brings that peace, and His Set-Apart Spirit that destroys the power of the enemy.

Time for A Life-Turn

She was desperate.

She was frantic.

She was anxious.

She was distressed.

She was hopeless.

She was despondent.

She was at the end of her rope.  She dreamed day after day, year after year, month after month-only to see the evidence of her natural desire unfulfilled.  She watched others bring forth life and felt the stabs of pain in her heart with every child’s cry she heard.  She probably tried numerous herbs and recommendations from other women.  Still nothing helped her.  What was she going to do?

To make matters worse, she’d no doubt heard others talking about her.  She’d seen their stares, felt their condemnation and scorn.  Surely they believed the problem was with her.  Motherhood was a defining point in a woman’s life-but not for her.  She was empty.

Now years later getting closer to 100, though her cycle had long ago ended, her desire for a baby of her own was still there.  In fact it was worse.  Beyond desperation, she thought there must be another way, especially since YAHUAH had promised them a son.


Sarah saw no other way, so a plan began to come together in her mind.  Her plan seemed perfect.  What could be the problem with it?

The problem was that it was not from YAHUAH.  His timing was way past the possibility of human control.  His plan was for an appointed time-a miracle by any standard.

Since Sarah got ahead of YAHUAH, she had to deal with some consequences she did not foresee.  She had pains, heart aches, worries and fears-all because she went ahead of YAHUAH.

How many times have we done the same things?

This is how I’ve felt off and on for a while.  What seemed like “good, logical, common sense things” to do weren’t part of YAHUAH’s will for us.  Over the last few years, in the back my mind, I had doubts with going forward with the things that we thought we should be doing.  I struggled with real peace during these times.  I found scripture verses to apply to the situations-creating  a false sense of peace yet further torment.  In the back of my mind though, I had the feeling that either we aren’t supposed to be making certain changes or that the timing was not right.  Still, we worked to try things this way and that way because it made sense to go in those directions-we had good reasons for continuing on.  Like Sarah, we had people around us who were doing some of the same things and having no problems succeeding, while we failed, every-single-time.

Like Sarah, dealing with the challenges of Hagar, while Hagar was pregnant, we began to have challenges and the stresses of trying to reach the end were consuming us.   I complained that I have no time for the things that I was supposed to be doing, that I was stressed out and that money was being wasted.  Yet I kept pushing for ways to make things work.

However we brought these challenges on ourselves.

Eventually though like Abraham and Sarah, it was time for a life-turn.  A life-turn is when we turned around, stopped and cut our losses from the situation, and then went back to the place where we first got off track.

Brick wall after brick wall we would hit and kept receiving no after no.  YAHUAH’s answer was clear.  YAHUAH was not leading us in that direction, at least not for right now in some instances.  In others, the answer may be yes but not right now…

When we stopped, when I stopped researching for ways to do these things, when we finally said no more, then peace came.  Sanity and order was restored.  Suddenly the financial constraints weren’t hard.  Yes, we did have some consequences to deal with.  The last affected one person in our families’ health.  It was horrible!  Again we had to cut our loses and walk away!

We had to see that we were coveting other people’s paths in life.  Coveting is against YAHUAH.  Coveting lead us to complain, to be ungrateful for where we were at that present time and to believe that the area/place/situational change would be better than what we have right now/had right then.  When we finally stopped and accepted that this is YAHUAH’s will for us right now, we then could see His divine hand of provision in our lives.

As we read through the Old Testament, I noticed something.  We people went through challenges, were blessed or were changed-the place was given a name-not that YAHUAH had additional names!  In this season of our life, I believe it is called Providence.

Providence is the place/time when we are in YAHUAH’s care, that He is the power sustaining and that He is guiding our every step.  We prayed daily YAHUAH don’t let us do anything outside of Your will and nothing happened at all.

At times, we were wondered what was wrong with us.  Why not us?  When is our time?

Yet our time had not come.

When we stopped looking at others, we began to see all the blessings that YAHUAH had given us.  Then we began to repent, asking YAHUAH for forgiveness for not believing His word and for not listening.  We began to thank Him for all the closed doors.  Furthermore, even though we tried to look at the good and bad of each decision, I know there were something’s we could not have seen, nor planned for but YAHUAH is All-Knowing and He kept us from moving forward for our own good!  His will is better for us to be stopped than for us to keep going.

I was listening to a special podcast from Crystal Hurst, which featured Crystal Hurst, Patricia Shrier and their mother Dr. Lois Evans (it was freebie for completing a survey) and I heard them say some things I already knew but this time it made so much more sense.

Mrs. Shrier said, “Just because I can, doesn’t mean that I should.”

Dr. Evans said, “When you have a decision to make, look 5, 10, 20 years down the line and think about how this one decision will affect you then.”

We could have continued and tried to find other ways but that didn’t mean that we should have.  Furthermore, in a few years, we may have had some big changes happening and this decision would have hindered those possible changes-greatly.

So we stopped.  We did a Life Turn.  In the last six years, we have had numerous Life Turns.  When I look back at those turns, I can see that though some of them where harder than others, they were the best decisions for us.  Life-Turns are necessary to put us back to the place where we went off track; we just have to put our trust in YAHUAH and turn around.


For months now, I had been doing something when I find a verse and focus on it.  I call it Scripture-Gramming.  Its kind of like Diagramming Sentences (which I have been grading a lot of over the years in our homeschool) but doing it with scripture verses and without classifications.

See below:


From time to time I will share them here!