Recently, I have been reading through the book of Romans and verses that I have heard all of my life, have taken on a bigger and deeper meaning in my life. In Romans 12:2, I kept wondering how do I transform my mind? How do I stop the things that are displeasing to YAHUAH?
I renew-change-transform my mind with reading of the Word. YAHUAH’s Word will tell me what is good, what is acceptable to Him and what His will is.
Many times, I feel like I don’t know what His will is. Why don’t I know? I don’t know because I am not getting in His Word to find out.
Spending time in His Word can and will transform me! I just have to open it up.
YAHUAH has a purpose for everything. Nothing is without a perfect and distinct design. However many times we just don’t see it. The other day while reading through the book of Romans, Chapter 2 Verse 4 jumped out at me! It was speaking to my heart saying “don’t you know the purpose of YAHUAH’s goodness (quality of being good), His forbearance (His act of refraining from giving me the penalty rightly due to me caused by my sin) and His long-suffering (His patient endurance of my sin)?”
YAHUAH’s purpose of goodness is for me to repent and to become in right relationship with Him, not through any of my works but simply by my belief in His only brought forth son YAHUSHA Messiah!
Sometimes in life we are hinder our healing, deliverance, and/or change in our lives. Sometimes we just need to let go and let YAHUAH work in our lives.
This week’s Shabbat Message: Talk To Me About Grace will encourage you to move beyond the opinions of others and your own excuses, to receive what you have been trying to reach for and to know fully that what YAHUAH gives is without cost.
It is time to believe, it is time to pray, it is time to let go, to press forward and allow His love to fill our hearts, which transcends all sin.
Sometimes the answer to an issue we are praying about is right in front of our face, but we are looking every where else, trying anything else but that one answer!
That’s what we have experienced recently.
We were trying to do something a while back and an option came for us to go a certain way but it was a different way that we were not as familiar with. So we chose to stay on the more familiar route, based on our previous success. However, months later, we were tired, frustrated and at our wits end. We were at the point of giving up, when we decided to look into that unfamiliar option again. This option which had been available all along was much easier and stress free. We could have saved time, money, emotional toil, and lessened the challenges, had we chosen this option sooner.
Yet we were the hold up because desiring our own ways and not wanting to give up this or that was blocking us from moving forward.
Then when we let go of the wheel, when we gave up, we surrendered our will, YAHUAH moved in miraculous ways. He provided for us in numerous ways. And His answer was there all along, we just had to let go.
Then one day it seemed as if nothing was going to work. First we hit one road block but we were able to find a potential path around. Then a few hours later, a second road block came-only it was higher than the first one.
Earlier this week, I remember laying in the bed, thinking I am so tired. I give up. I have to accept this “no” for now.
Then, His truth crumbled the first road block, correcting wrong information. A day or so later, YAHUAH’s grace demolished the second road block and His mercy shined down upon us. Then He, unexpectedly poured down even more grace upon us. Though it came through people, we know that at every point He was behind it.
YAHUAH’s grace on us.
All week long, I’ve thought about these situations, which completely turned around unexpectedly. I am change by them. As I reflect on the timing when this event started in our life, I see His hand was there. Most of the time I refused to see it, but He was still there. I know He hears me and has my best in His plans. All things work together for our good…the no’s, delays, challenges, frustrations and even some of our own decisions – all worked in our behalf – although we couldn’t see it.
He still moves mountains even today.
For me and you.
For all who believe.
Now, not all situations will work out similarly or according to our own earthly plans, most don’t even come close, but since YAHUAH’s plans for me are better than I can plan for myself, it is best to submit to His will.
Just because our prayers were answered close to our desires, doesn’t mean the answer is without it’s own challenges. There were somethings we had to let go of, some compromises we had to accept and some changes we had to and still have to make. We can’t see what YAHUAH has for us as we go in this direction, but I know His best-is best.
Nearly eight years ago, we had a miscarriage at about 8 weeks into the pregnancy. I went to the hospital with some bleeding on the first day of the Festival of Unleavened Bread that week. The doctors said everything was fine and this was normal.
A few days later, the bleeding became worse and big clots started coming out. I tried to rest as much as I could but nothing could stop what was happening. The next day was a Sabbath and when we saw flesh in the clots, we immediately went to the hospital, where they confirmed a miscarriage was happening.
I was crushed and confused. Why me? Why us?
I still don’t have the answers and a few months later we became pregnant with our first born son who is totally amazing to me!
But the grief that I went through for a long time was hard then and sometimes is still even hard now. There was a painting that someone created years ago of the Messiah carrying a black woman in His arms walking on the beach-that was me for several months after the miscarriage.
I felt like I was barely able to breathe, let alone function. I tried to hold myself together because we had three daughters who needed me, so I would get up in the morning, with every intent on doing one of my exercise videos, but within a few minutes, I’d end up on the floor in quiet tears.
I know that it was only YAHUAH’s hand on me that kept me from losing my mind. I felt like my heart had just been ripped away from me. I had doubts and fears. I wanted to blame YAHUAH, blame myself, blame anything I could think of. I felt like I was on the verge of breaking down, but YAHUAH kept me.
In a desperate search for help, I found March of Dimes web page about Miscarriages and I signed up to receive a package in the mail about grief. This was so helpful for me. It helped me to understand that my husband and I grieve differently and I didn’t need to be upset with him because of that. It helped me to see that we were not alone-that others have went through miscarriages too.
One moment at a time, one step at a time, I walked through that grief. Some days were good and some were bad. Having a husband and three daughters to homeschool and take care of everyday, pushed me to get out of bed, to go outside, and to find a moment to smile. Years later, I still feel that grief some days and the Festival of Unleavened Bread is a constant reminder of it. Yet, I am not at the same place I was eight years ago.
So I want you to know today, that you are not alone if you have went through or are going through a miscarriage. YAHUAH is there with you. Whether you have family near or far, have friends or not, don’t let go of YAHUAH’s hand. Though you may not see a way through your grief, let Him carry you through your grief. Don’t fight the grief you feel. Don’t stay in it either, but live through it.
May YAHUAH comfort you in His everlasting arms.
It has been a while since I have posted a “Who Was She?” For a few weeks, as I have been reading through the book of Yahuchanon (John) the woman at the well has stuck out in my mind. I started to think about this unique life changing encounter and now am ready share. This encounter is found in Yahuchanon (John) 4:4-30.
YAHUSHA had an appointment-He needed to go through Shomeron (Samaria). He knew she would be there. There was something He needed to do and He didn’t need others around, so He sent them on an errand. This was to be a personal encounter.
As it was with most women at the time, it was her daily practice to go to this place. A place to get the water needed to complete her tasks of the day.
Sure enough here she came. The woman-getting her daily need of water. But it is still not enough. She doesn’t tell anyone what she needs is more than this water. Inside she is thirsting for more and she looks for what she needs in other ways, only to keep looking, never finding what she needed.
But today was different. Little did she know today her life would change.
Sitting at the well is a man. This man didn’t seem to pose a threat, in fact He seemed ordinary.
Then He asks her a question. She responses with more questions. I think they were excuses.
Water is not really what He is really talking about though. He knew all along what her need really was and He knew the answer.
YAHUSHA spoke directly to her heart. She had a heart that wanted to worship but seemed to be hindered by rules, location, and social status.
His words pierced her heart – freeing her and telling her that worship is a matter of the heart.
Then He speaks to the problem of her heart. He knows the longing she has had. The emptiness she has tried to fill. He speaks to the hurts of her heart. He speaks to her shame…
And yet, He doesn’t judge her.
She knew this was no ordinary man. This Man was different. How could anyone know her true heart. Throughout her life she was judged for her bloodline and her mistakes, but here in the presence of One who could judge her, He pointed her to eternal life.
Her direction in life now changed, she ran to tell others. Free of the guilt and shame. Her hope restored. She spoke boldly proclaiming …there is a Man at the well who changed my life.
The people knew her. They knew all about her. They might have even been the ones who judged her. They may have seen her struggle in life. They may have been the ones who looked down on her because of her lineage. However this woman who may have normally been quiet, trying hard not to be noticed-ran down the streets boldly proclaiming “Come see a Man…”
The change in her, quickened their hearts. Could He do something for them? They just had to see. So they did. And they were changed too.
As I have reflected on the Shomerniy woman at the well for several weeks, I have pondered many things:
What ordinary moment in my life, will be changed to extraordinary?
Am I too busy to see the moment of change in my life?
What excuses am I making when a deep need is on the verge of being met?
Am I allowing some things or the opinions of others to hold me back from receiving what YAHUAH has for me (bloodline, job/career, location, knowledge, pride)?
What are the hidden issues of my heart? What am I truly searching for throughout my day? What hurts of my heart are waiting for a healing word from YAHUAH?
When I have been healed, will I share my freedom by telling others or do I return to my own dwelling and keep things to myself?
How many young ladies and young wives need to hear about the One who can give eternal life, without cost, incurring debt, shame, or strings attached, by hearing my testimony?
I pray that YAHUAH will help me be more aware of these things everyday.
For about half of this week, I was low state. I was deeply disappointed and in great sadness. This sadness was beginning to turn to anger toward YAHUAH. Sometime on Friday, I began to see that my attitude was wrong but still I felt like I was so right in the way that I felt. Now my feelings weren’t wrong. We will experience disappointments in life, but the way that I choose to respond and not walk in faith believing YAHUAH’s word over what I saw, was wrong.
So today, I was listening to David and Nicole Binion and I was trying to replay “Doxology” when another song started playing. I was about to hit the back button, when I heard the words “When I cannot see it…” As I continued to listen, I knew this was my song today.
So if you are down in your faith, if life’s challenges have you challenged, I pray this picture I created below, will encourage you to hang on.
Here is the song: All Things – Nicole Binion
This is the question we truly must ask ourselves:
Is celebrating Halloween Worth the Fun?
One day my husband and I were outside and a neighbor was walking by taking a basket of Halloween candy to another neighbor. When my husband asked her why she was doing it, since it was not of Christ, she said “We do it for the candy! For the kids!”
Have we who believe in the bible, dropped so low in our faith that we are willing to participate in wicked celebrations, just for some candy?
I could write a thousand more words about why we should be avoiding candy to begin with but the deeper issue is, why are many people excusing and taking part in what is clearly known as a celebration that is against the bible?
In this special message, Where is Christ in Halloween 2018 WTF? (Worth The Fun) you will be challenged with The Word and invited to “put on the Truth of Holiness” instead of giving way to envy and falling into sin. It is time to climb out and be set apart. The church, the body of Messiah “needs to stop acting like the world and be holy.”
If you are a believer in the bible, and are willing to allow the Messiah to dwell in you, then listen to this message, Where is Christ in Halloween 2018 WTF? (Worth The Fun)
Also here is the Message Scripture Guide –